My Diamond

8 years ago my cat gave birth to 6 kittens. One of them ended up being Diamond. I know I am not meant to have babies of my own from my body. So I became attached to my cats. Diamond is the Princess. She is  fragile young lady, who tonight is dying. There isn't anything I can do for her.  How is it I can give them homes with lots of love and fun, but I can't "put them down" when they are dying? I mean it kills me inside to know I won't ever get another hug or kiss from her or even hear her purr again. I should be used to losing my furry babies since I only lost Star a few months ago. Year and half before that I lost Bella before that Georgia and Buddy. Let's not forget Ive lost mice too. Why do we get so attached to our animals? I guess in my eyes, its the fact they dont lie to you, beat you or deceive you. They are always there and forgiving you if you step on their tail or kick them off the bed when you stretch while sleeping. When you are sad they are there with hugs and kisses and act goofy to help you forget the sadness. She is my royal princess and im losing her. yeah im done making sure i spelled things right or my puncuations are right, im losing another baby. other than my animals i only have my niece. and she is hardly ever here she is a teenager and she is preparing for her future and learning to be on her own in 3 years  she will be gone. i have 2 puppies moving in in 3 weeks, right now im too sad to even think of that, but i already paid for them so im going to have these babies in my house that im really going to have to pay attention to when they get here..i need to get my priorities straight this is crazy, it hurts to lose them when they die or disappear and you never get to see them anymore, yes there are memories, yes there will always be more animals, it just hurts as its happening.. i hate seeing animals die, why cant god take the lives of bad people and leave animals to live forever?