Was that truly your name? You were fast to get rid of your email and Hangouts. You made it seem like I was some enemy by saying what I had to say. I can't hold you back from your school. You're here on a visa. You don't need me as a distraction. I had no problem being a friend.
I've had my fare share of abusive relationships. I'm a handful for any guy taken on anything with me. Whether it is a friend ship or a relationship. I can't feel like I'm being rushed or smothered.
I know you read these. You said you were reading these. Don't think of me as an enemy. I'm far from that. You have your whole life ahead of you. Why would you waste it on someone my age? I'm old enough to be your mother.
I'm not rich. Far from it. Im facing eviction from my own house. Because I quit a job to get away from an abusive person who denied what he was doing. My life is full of chaos right now. That's why I pull back from anyone right now. I pulled back from friends who have known me years. No one knows what's going on. Basically because I doubt anyone would care and anyone would help. I will get it taken care.
I need to focus on being positive. I have gone through a lot. And how you spoke to me that last night. It just made me pull back further. I shouldn't be made to feel wrong fir something I said. Been there, done that. Like you said let's move forward.
