STAR BERRY PUPPUP

i wasnt looking for people to say things to me but when they did it hurt me more, it made me think really you people are this heartless? really? i came on tonight to see if i can do it, i got messages from people saying to go get another dog, which i cant, before star i wasnt a dog person when she came into my life she was this little puppy i had to care for she was only 5 weeks old i raised her like i would a human baby checking on her every 2 hours and making sure she was warm fed and loved, took her everywhere with me from the grocery store to the playground to swimming at the lakes or the ocean, she ate what we ate and i knew she cried when i wasnt around, one of those mommy instincts you know when your child isnt happy, i knew...friday when i took her in to find out what we could do for her, i felt she knew she wasnt leaving alive she kept hugging my leg and kissing me, putting her arm up like she wanted a hug, to hear she needed a surgery that didnt guarrantee anything and its was very risky she couldve died during it was hard, the vet said the only other option is something no one wants to hear...she was 9 and half years old and blind in one eye, had a fun filled life, i guess its true what people say about dogs they either go fast or die a long slow death, star went fast, she will be missed for a very long time...sorry im rambling..but how can people be so heartless and just tell you to go get another one? or offer you their dog? really? can humans really be that heartless? like i said before star was a baby to me, she grew up being like a daughter to me, you get hooked to a furry person and you grow this bond no one can really understand unless they have been there themselves, and when you lose that furry person, you have more in your life and all you gotta do is take it one step at a time and one day at a time, learn to live without that furry person in your life anymore just like quitting smoking...its hard but you have to do it, not just for you but for the dog you lost needs her soul to get to heaven (i know she is going to be waiting for me at that gate when my time comes), let go and move on for those around you physically now who need you here for them too...it wont be easy, nothing this hard ever is easy, the easy things in life suck worse really....