I AM IN A FAKE RELATIONSHIP...UGH

I DONT KNOW WHY I LET HIM INTO MY LIFE? NO I CANT SAY I WAS LONELY BECAUSE I WASNT. I GUESS IT WAS BECAUSE I FELT SORRY FOR HIM. BUT HOW DO I GO ON WITH A GUY WHO DOESNT EVEN KISS ME? I WISH I COULD JUST DO AWAY WITH HIM AND TELL HIM TO GET OUT AND GO BACK TO WHERE HE CAME FROM. FINANCIALLY I NEEDED HIM. BUT NOT ANYMORE. IM LEARNING STEP BY STEP I DONT NEED HIM. HOW DO GUYS GET AWAY WITH SAYING THEY WANT ALL THESE WONDERFUL THINGS WITH WOMEN AND THEN ONCE THEY GET THE WOMAN FIGURE THEY DONT NEED TO DO ANYTHING TO SHOW THEY EVEN LOVE THE WOMAN? WHY DO THEY SUCKER US INTO A RELATIONSHIP IF THEY REALLY DONT WANT US? THIS GUY DOESNT DO SHIT BESIDES SIT ON HIS ASS. AND COMPLAIN HOW MUCH PAIN HE IS IN. I DONT BELIEVE HIM. I LOST TRUST IN HIM SO LONG AGO. HE BLAMES ME FOR WHY HE DOESNT EVEN KISS ME. TOLD ME IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS ASLEEP. REALLY? I MEAN REALLY? WHAT ABOUT THE HOURS IM AWAKE ASKING FOR THOSE KISSES AND GET TOLD "IN A MINUTE"? THATS NOT GOOD ENOUGH? SADLY I LOOK AT THIS GUY WHO IS A WASTE OF SPACE AND I CALL PECKERHEAD SUCKER (ONLY IN MY HEAD) AND WONDER HOW THE CHICK HE JUST LEFT DEALT WITH HIS BULLSHIT LIKE THIS? MAYBE ITS A GOOD THING WE HAVE NEVER HAD SEX? ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MANY STDS HES CARRYING. I DONT WANT THEM. HE PROBABLY ISNT EVEN GOOD IN BED AND ID STILL BE UPSET BUT ONLY ON THE FACT HE WAS A BAD AND I DIDNT GET ANY PLEASURE OUT OF IT?! LOL AND I THINK TO MYSELF SOON ENOUGH I WILL MEET THE GUY WHO WILL BE THE MAN FOR ME. BUT WHERE? I DONT WANT TO MEET SOME GUY ON CRAIGSLIST OR OFF THE INTERNET FOR CRYING OUTLOUD. NOT AGAIN. BEEN THERE DONE THAT. BUT HOW HARD CAN IT BE TO SHOW SOMEONE YOU CARE WITH A SIMPLE KISS? HUGS WORK TOO. BUT NOT EVEN A THANK YOU OR ANYTHING. UGH I NEED HELP. ARE THERE ANY GOOD GUYS OUT THERE ANYMORE? THE LAST GUY I LET INTO MY HOUSE LIED TO ME AND ABOUT ME SO MUCH THIS GUY LOOKED LIKE AN ANGEL. HAHA WELL GUESS WHAT? HES JUST LIKE THE LAST ONE. AND THE LAST ONE WAS ONLY A FRIEND I WAS HELPING OUT BECAUSE HE WASNT MAN ENOUGH TO KEEP A JOB AND PAY HIS BILLS. BUT GLAD HES GONE FOR GOOD THIS TIME. I WILL NEVER GO BACK TO THAT SHIT AGAIN. BUT SERIOUSLY ARE THERE ANY GOOD GUYS OUT THERE?