tonight i was feeling the urge to go out and do something so i took a sheet and laid on my lawn and thought awhile what it was i needed to do because i was bored and couldnt fathom cleaning because id start and get frustrated because its too humid. well my friends dog and my cat were walking down the street side by side and i said well i guess i will take cinnamin for a walk, i havent taken a dog for a walk since star died, i mean i took the puppies for quick walks but not like this tonight i walked cinnamin all over and played with fireflies i was tossing them at her and she was catching them and her tongue glowed so cool. we were out for about 45 minutes i dropped her back at the house and took my boys out in plans to go the same route and play with the fireflies again. but 3 quarters of the way i got distracted and stopped to talk to a friend and her kids and see how the wedding they went to was, they showed me broccoli they were growing because i gave them the plants after i bought them for myself and decided i didnt want them anymore because it meant id have to plant them in the ground but i didnt feel like it. but anyways, for 2 hours i was out the house walking dogs and i came to the idea maybe just maybe things will turn around for me i just need to keep at it. i do need to get out of this house, but i first need to get a job and money coming in and start saving some here and there and in 2 years maybe i will have enough to move from my trailer into a home. i can only hope and keep faith. johns been here almost 2 months and things have turned around for him so fast, hes in school and going to a job interview on tuesday, maybe he and i can come up with something where the house is his and i can move somewhere else and i mean afterall the trailer paid for in full he wont have to worry about mortgage and losing it and when he gets tired of living here he can move out and i can come back i dont know but it is something to ponder some more.
speaking of john i didnt finish what i was sayin lastnight and gosh it still hasnt hit me what i saying but i dont mind right now im in a good mood and the past is the past and as of right now im only thinking of the future. and i want to have a barbeque, this stinks i didnt prepare my life for fun hahas for me i guess, anyways more tomorrow, im going to give john back my laptop so he can play his games...
have a good night..
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